I'm going to buy a gun and start a war;

it's been a while

2009-06-25T01:30:07Z

It has been so so so long. I thought I'd post. I don't really know what to say though.
I am going to college in the fall, so yay for that. I don't really have any goals beside that. That gets my parents pretty upset, but it's not my fault I don't know what I want to do with my life just yet. I'll go to college and I'll find out.
Prefrosh weekend was amazing though, so I expect to have loads of fun. =)

I am reading Michael Crichton's Travels, and it is rather good. I love learning about the different places he visits. He said he went to the psychic association of London, and the psychic were spot on!! He also climbed Mount Kilimanjaro. I feel like I know him. lol.

All right, this is getting really lame. Haha. I feel like I should have something interesting to say?

Oh, I've been searching for a job.
This is what I have so far:
-the people at Boston Market really like me/ said they'd call in a week
-I'll be working with Ms. Arnold at WHS on Mon and Tues stuffing report cards into envelopes
-I'm participating in a study for people who wear glasses at Wellesley College (I'm the guinea pig) and I get paid $20!
-I have preorientation dorm clean up where I will be paid a total of $400

My grandmother visited for three weeks! She's gone now, but that was rather exciting. We played checkers every day.

I went to kickboxing class today. I sweated through my sneakers -- that's got to mean something.

Summer is kind of lame. It has been raining two weeks straight. I can't even go swimming. Can't complain, though -- I got my luck back today!

This is a lame story, but I'll tell it anyway.
Yesterday I woke up and went to turn off my alarm and it hit me in the face. LOL. Then I got a call from Ms. Arnold but I couldn't anwer because I was in the bathroom. And later I messed up my expository writing placement exam. I thought my luck had ended...

BUT

My expository writing exam is fixed. And today I went to close the car door but I gave it a light push so I went to check if I had in fact closed it, and I had!! I know it sounds lame, but I guess I'm really superstitious? Anyway, I figure the luck is back..if only for a while.

Anyway, I don't have much to say anymore. Maybe when I have something insightful I will post. Or when I just want to say something. HA.

kk.

Maybe I'll try to learn some new juggling tricks?

I wanted to try it.

2009-01-19T18:46:43Z

If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
I Fear…

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total: 2

[ ] being touched
[x] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ]success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 2

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed/mugged
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
Total so far: 2

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] un-curable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone (as in alone forever, not alone in a room)
[x] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up
Total: 3

[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
Total: 1

1) Select 5-10 (or so) favourite books.

2) Post the first line from them.

3) Don't mention the title or author. That's for everyone else to figure out.

4) After someone correctly identifies the book, update the original entry to reflect that fact.

1. Mr. and Mrs. Dursley, of number four, Privet Drive, were proud to say that they were perfectly normal, thank you very much.

2. They're out there. Black boys in white suits up before me to commit sex acts in the hall and get it mopped up before I can catch them.

3. There was no possibility of taking a walk that day.

4. Tonight I find myself here in a guest house in the city of Salisbury.

5. The book you are holding your two hands right now -- assuming that you are, in fact, holding this book, and that you have only two hands -- is one of the two books in the world that will show you the difference between the word "nervous" and the word "anxious."

thanks!

2009-01-05T20:32:47Z

I know I'm only seventeen but I feel like I've lived a thousand lives. I've been so lucky to experience so many things. I can still remember the first time I woke up in America and our apartment was so strange. It was all like an adventure. I hopped out of bed and went to the bathroom, only I really wanted to see what the button on the doorknob would do and I ended up locking the door from the outside. I started crying because I thought I broke it! I still feel that sense of adventure everytime I come back to Waltham at the end of the summer. Everything seems so foreign and I'm in awe at the huge supermarkets and all the people, people, people.
But I think it's so amazing that I've seen Disney World! It really is magical and it's beautiful! And I've been to Canada and Florida and Bermuda. And I love the weekends that I get to spend with my parents!
I can't help feeling happy at all these things that have happened in my life. At seventeen, I feel like I've lived out so many things already, that'd I'd be fine with leaving.
Of course, I'd be even more happier with experiencing even more! I want to get more acquainted with grief and I want to travel and I want to live life. I want to be fully human. I want to learn more.
I feel very lucky that I've made it this far, because some people don't even live past the age of 2. And I think it would be great if I could continue in this way. I just can't believe I'll see and learn and hear even more than I have already.

I've been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself laying flat on my face,
I just pick myself up and get back in the race

Barack Obama.

2008-11-05T23:52:30Z

Barack Obama is the most amazing politician I have seen so far in my lifetime. No other man has brought so much hope and made change seem so possible in this divided country. The world is blessed to have a man like this. He broke boundaries, he is the first African American President-Elect the United States has seen. He is proof democracy works -- he was able to rise up through hard work and a determination to change. I may not always like America, but right now I feel proud of how far this country has come. So many people were united through Obama's message -- nowhere else in the world do people get as excited about elections as in America. You vote because you believe your voice has a right to be heard. And it is.

This has been one of the happiest days of my life. I am proud of Obama and his supporters that made a once impossible outcome possible. If only Martin Luther King Jr. was alive now; if only Thomas Jefferson was alive now; if only Teddy Roosevelt was alive now; and if only the many men and women who had pushed for progress were here to see this historical moment. They would see the progress America, this amazing experiment of democracy, has made.

I look forward to the future with caution, apprehension, happiness, and excitement. It's time to heal this country!

Amazing Grace
Oh, how sweet the sound

woo school and life

2008-10-30T20:26:34Z

School is great!
Mrs. Roberts loves me (even though she is insane (she wanted to dress up as Britney for Halloween! stick to the angel, lady)), I'm getting brilliant grades. She hates Josue though. That stinks because he really tries and he's trying to be active and get good grades this year even though it's kind of late. I can't wait until we get to donate that cow in Diversity Club.
We were reading The Hours. It's a great book! It's even better than Mrs. Dalloway, which wasn't great. But seriously, The Hours has everything in it. And it's beautifully written. Not like these Young Adult novels these days which are written for like elementary school students or something. Seriously, the writing sucks.
We got our alcohol surveys back from 9th grade today! That was interesting. Hahaha, for the question, "Why do you not drink?" I wrote, "I heard it kills brain cells and I don't want to go crazy." LOL. Yes, that's it.
I'm so close to finishing college stuff!
SATs Saturday for failures like me, hahahaha. But seriously, I actually studied for Bio this time, so I plan on getting a higher score.
We get to read Oedipus over the weekend and Wednesday I think we're starting Hamlet.
John Shen has been being really nice to me. This is surprising since I can never tell if he hates me or not. Haha. He dressed up as a pimp ata the NHS dance though! Hahaha. And Frankie got a ridiculous crazy haircut that makes him look French, but which I dislike. It looks too girlish.
We had a debate in school today. I felt bad for Shani because she didn't do so well as Obama, but it's really scary to be up there, so I don't blame her. Sam as McCain was amazing. Someone was like, "If only McCain was half as good..." Sam is now my hero. I heard Deland did better as Obama the second time around?
Math is amazingly fun. I don't get why I like it so much.
Ahhhh, Mrs. Cappucci is killing me. She has NO EMOTIONS whatsoever. Today we were taking an enzyme quiz and we could hear someone sobbing in the stairwell like, "I don't have any s***" and she just went over and closed the door and was like, "Meltdown. We all have those." HAHA. whhaattt? this lady is nuts.
I get my senior pictures taken today. Yayyy.
BY THE WAY, turn on WE-TV sometime. If the NHS party is on, you'll see me being nominated for best costume and generally making a fool of myself.
I can't really think of anything else.
Oh oh! MY dad called me yesterday from the Hoover Dam!! Ahhhhh.
But remember life is a ferris wheel, so if you're up at one point, you might be down tomorrow. I guess that's what the "Greek Chorus" said, according to Roberts.
Really, this entry made no sense at all.
Ahhh the election is rather close. Although Obama's infomerical was amazing. I'm just afraid that if he wins, he'll get assassinated or something. THAT WOULD BE TERRIBLE. Which reminds me: READ A PRAYER FOR OWEN MEANY. Best book ever. If anything happened to Obama I would be in mourning. And if he got elected I would be HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY.
I'm going to stop now because this is making noo sense whatsoever. Good-bye.

the unthinkable

2008-08-30T23:38:30Z

I made a goal list. This is ridiculous because a) lists are not my thing and b) I never make goals ahead of time. However, this goal list I'm certain about because all the goals sound realistic enough. Plus, the list format makes them orderly.
Here it is:
1. Get into college
2. Become badminton champ
3. Learn Latvian
4. Become President of Latvia

My Brandeis professor came to our house today. She really likes me for some reason, and it actually wasn't too awkward.

the sea & latvia

2008-07-05T19:36:30Z

The sea, my tempestuous lover. It softly caresses my skin, enveloping my being, wholly taking my soul. But it is a passionate lover; it is not afraid to violently toss me away, crash onto me with strong, frothy waves that deafen -- yet, as if it has changed its mind for acting so maliciously, it lovingly carries me back and onward. I give myself to the sea, let it fold over my body, wash over my creases, let it regenerate my spirit. The sea is not always calm, but it is always ready to take me -- to take me away.

And the paths, the well trodden, common paths I take in this country run through my veins; just as the soft air, as soft as silk on tree leaves, with that distinct scent, hides deep inside my soul. This is the country of childhood and summers reading books, traveling, living with my grandmother, meeting new people. It is the country I revisit every summer and are never dulled for new experiences.

Meet me in the future...

2008-07-01T13:25:23Z

Add your bubble

Writer's Block: Choose a Power

2008-06-25T14:02:25Z

If you could have the power to fly, be invisible, or teleport anywhere, which would you choose?

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Fly or teleport! Teleport because then I wouldn't have to spend eleven hours in a plane today and could go anywhere anytime without a hassle.
And fly because it would simply be awesome.

Bike Rides

2008-06-21T01:10:31Z

I just rode my bike to Shaws to rent a movie and it felt so friggin' good.

research paper back!

2008-06-19T16:20:38Z

HECK YES. I got an A on my research paper! I'm so happy right now, I'm glowing! Ahhhhh! :D
Hard work pays off!
I'm so friggin happy right now.
I love Mr. Cox.

Darn!

2008-06-11T23:10:56Z

Boy, I'm really going to miss those seniors, Sam and Clair!

junior prom.

2008-05-22T23:29:02Z

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

JOHN WILLIAMS AT BOSTON POPS?!

2008-05-21T23:03:50Z

Boston.com told me there is a film night at the Boston Pops and JOHN WILLIAMS is going to be playing. This was Saturday. Naturally, I run over to the Boston Pops site and search for tickets. NON. It's like SOLD OUT.
Seriously. I love John Williams. They're going to have his new Indy soundtrack and they have clips from the movie. They'll also have a narrator for when the play Harry Potter. Ahhhh! I can't believe I missed this chance.
Maybe I can still find tickets for Saturday?? AHHH.

keys to success car day!

2008-05-20T23:44:42Z

i know you all will be disappointed to hear that i did not win the car today. however, i did get into the fifty final keys! woop! so i got a t-shirt and a name tag. and clair, who was sitting right next to me, got into the final fifty too!
it was not that exciting, but now it is.
so we walked to the pit/back of the school where the car was. claudiane was my personal cheerleader down the hallways. seriously, she kept yelling my name the WHOLE hallway. she also took some pictures [see facebook]. anywho, we got there and we got into two lines. i was number 19, conveniently in between johnshen and michaelrusso. mrs. lopes and the radio guy wanted everyone to cheer loud so we did.
like 15 people tried keys i think? something like that. and then deland walked up to the plate. and guess what? he won. he won it! he got so excited he jumped out of the car, once it was revved up, and started prancing in circles in front of like four cameras. he did some jiggly motions, some michael jackson moves, and then he proceeded to climb on top of the car and pose. lmao. it was awesome. i'm proud of him. hahaha. all the photographers were having a really good day with all the good pictures they were taking of him. haha, he had the greatest reaction.
of course, i'm not upset that i didn't win because i already have a car and i got a t-shirt. but it'd be nice if i could have a key as a memory. haha. and those sneakers they had as condolence prizes? i'd like a pair instead of a car. mine have large holes in them. lol.

anyway, it was loads of fun. and i'm glad i was one of the fifty chosen.

deval patrick!

2008-05-11T01:25:38Z

deval patrick shook my hand! he shook my hand! ahhhh! :D
i went to a vote for change kick off today in roxbury. and deval was there! he came out of this little door and shook my mom's hand and then mine. and i completely blanked - i was all like, "hiiiii!" it was amazingly cool.
then i got my materials for registering voters. deval was so friendly and down to earth. he was dressed in jeans and a cap and a shirt. he asked some people ( there were only like 40-50 people there although 177 signed up) what government was, then gave us a quote. and the cool part was, the room was half black and half white! and everyone was wearing obama shirts, and i felt like i was part of something.
people got into these little groups with locations where they would go register voters, but we decided to choose waltham as a location.
so once clair was done with her tournament, we went to moody street to register voters.
we got all sorts of people: people who said no to obama, people who didn't want to register because they hated bureaucrats, people who didn't speak english. there were a lot of spanish speakers who didn't know a word of english. we met one guy who conversed with clair in spanish. he was from guatemala and he's only been here three months. he said it's hard to find work. man, i felt like hugging that man. he seemed so nice.
we registered five voters, since we only had five forms. we were there for about three hours hours.
we got:
a spanish guy who sort of smelled like alcohol and said his uncle would help him out since he speaks english
two black guys who said they wanted to register, but were short on time, so they took the forms with them
a homeless man who lives at the shelter (isn't that so cool?! i was soo excited!) he's really from penn. but he's been here a month and he really wanted to register. he seemed well-learned. sometimes i wonder how some people become homeless. his friend didn't want to register.
and finally! we got a young spanish woman who was wheeling a baby carriage. she said she'd always wanted to register and took the form with her.

most people said they'd be voting for obama or democratic, and a few said, "no! never," when we asked, "have you thought about voting for obama?"

man, i felt so good after we did that. i felt like i'd helped some people out, like they would actually make change, and maybe we'd changed something for them. clair did too. i wish we could do that more.

also there's this cool part about the form where you can fill in landmarks and streets if you don't have an address, like homeless people. that's the nicest thing ever.

isn't it funny how we all live in the same world, yet we all see it differently? we see the same physical objects but we all attribute different feelings to them and different thoughts, so in effect, we're all living in our separate worlds which then interconnect. it's pretty cool.

hahaha, i love that song! :D

Luck

2008-05-08T23:01:16Z

Today our match was canceled because the other team's bus never showed up. But that's not the point of this entry.
I came home and my dad called and was like, "Where are you?" and I'm like, "Home." Turns out, he went to Brandeis to watch our match, but I never called to tell him it was canceled. I wasn't expecting him to come. I love him so much. I hope he comes again. That's the cutest thing ever. :]

I also realized how lucky I was to be born into this life. I grew up in a good family and I live here with all these opportunities that I can just go out and take. Never take these opportunities for granted. I was thinking about all the people in less civilized parts of the world, where they may not even have water for days. And here I am, drinking water 24/7. I'm not in a war-struck part of the world. I'm not a child who grew up with abusive parents or parents who didn't try to make the most of their child's life. And it's not the childrens' faults. It's just the way things go. I feel so so so lucky to be living this life, and not in Myanmar, dead because of a cyclone, or in Indonesia, with a wrecked home because of a tsunami, or even here, with parents who didn't try hard to earn some money or raise their child in a healthy manner. I love my parents. They are the closest people to me because they understand me better than anyone.
I can't really put this feeling in words. I'm just glad I live here where I can compete to be what I want. Not everyone has that shot in life. I hope that the people with wrecked lives are reborn into luckier families.
I bet this all sounds cliche or something, but it's true. Life is all about enjoying the opportunites life presents to you, because you might not be this lucky next time. Some people in this country and the media make it so easy to complain about things. I can't even describe it. I just learned to take what you have because some people don't even have that.

Anyway, AP exam tomorrow! Woop! I'm pumped and confident. Wish me luck!

Hi. This is my entry on the letter N.

2008-04-28T20:54:50Z

Nate the Great - A favorite childhood novel.

Name - Whenever people call me Darja, with the hard j, it doesn't feel as if I'm answering with myself, but as another person. It's weird. Whenever I say that, it feels like I'm talking about someone else.

The N-Word - I'm not gonna say it. You think I'm gonna say it? Well, I'm not. It's just, that's the first thing I though of which made me think of black people. I like black people because they're very open and not afraid to tell it like it is.

Nineteen Sixty-Three - The year my mom was born and also the year Kennedy was shot.

Nineteen Eighty-Four - Great book. Chilling, but sends out a good warning to the future.

Narwhal!!! - OMG! I just found out about this animal over the weekend. It is the craziest thing ever! It's like a whale, but it has a huge horn thing like a unicorn! It's amazing. I can't believe no one ever told me about this animal before! You can't miss it!

Nazis - Generally bad people. As in: Nazi Party, Anna the Nazi, Spinning Nazi. Can also be beneficial as in: grammar Nazi.

Nolan - Mrs. Lopes's small son.

Naked - Reminds me of Daniel Radcliffe in that horse show. Also, strangely enough, of little kids.

Neighbors - Craazy people. Like our neighbors from the Middle East.

Ask for a letter, yo!

school+tennis+class+driving across friggin Waltham

2008-04-04T19:59:25Z

So yesterday I got home at 8:30. That sucked.
And then I slept.

Gotta go write my essay.

I wish...

2008-04-02T00:36:19Z

I wish I knew what to do in life.
Right now I'm thinking about becoming an elementary school teacher.
But that'll change in approximately a week.
Other jobs I like(d):
marketing
journalism
environmentalist
alternative/renewable energy scientist
the people who work on NatGeo
the people who go into rainforest research
insect scientist
biologist
archaelogist
anthropologist
teacher
translator
circus clown
volleyball player
movie production
screenwriting
author
astronaut
pilot
detective

But most of all right now, I want to go to Latvia and see my grandmother.

it's april fool's, yo

2008-04-01T20:58:55Z

How come no one ever does April Fool's jokes anymore? I was waiting for one the whole day.
You know it's a lame day when no one plays a practical joke on you and it's April Fool's Day.
It reminds me of that great voice post I made a year ago. :)
But seriously.
Plus, it's my saint's day.
Party it up, please.

as life goes by, romantic dreams must die, so i bid mine goodbye.

2008-03-29T17:08:56Z

Saturday 8am History classes rock. :)
Turn off your lights 8-9pm today for Earth Hour. It'll save bunches of energy. Last year, two cities did it and it saved enough energy equal to taking 48,000 cars off the road. This year more cities are doing it. So participate. Use candles or something.
I don't like that my throat is scratchy and I keep coughing, so I can't sing along to my favorite songs.

Stupid people.

2008-03-13T16:37:29Z

Seriously. What the hell is the point of having your lisence if the only place you can drive is school and you have to call both parents before you leave and when you get home. Take a chill pill.

Whatever.
I might be going to the aquarium with the Japanese kids on Saturday.

Japanese kids!!

2008-03-11T02:07:48Z

The Japanese kids came today!!! I'm still kind of mad my parents wouldn't let me have one, but I know Frankie has one and so does MIke, so I'll be having at least 2 classes with them! Scoreee! I can't wait to meet them. :) Maybe they're from the same city as Yurkio! That'd be way cool. And I could be biffs with Mike's Japanese kid! Oh man, the possibilities. :)

Today I went to the eye doctor. Of course, my eyes are worse, but I'm getting new frames! I went to the place Shannon recommended where they match glasses to your face and they picked out some good ones for me. I had a hard time deciding between the two, but I finally decided on the fun look. I'll be getting them on Thursdayy! We also went to the Great Harvest Bread Co. which was actually open today. We got biscotti and I used my Keys to Success card.

And omgz work dramaz.. I worked with Josue on Saturday (lol I made him work on that day even though he hates it). He's fun to work with but he's sort of lazy and tries to get out of certain jobs. So he was doing that on Saturday and then me and him talk a lot. I mean, it's no problem because everyone else talks more than us put together (Nancy is always babbling to Wilfrid), but on Sat. he was trying to get out of doing a job again, and Nancy doesn't like him much so she kind of lost it. She told him (I got this from Josue) that he doesn't do anything and is going to teach me to do weed and sleep with me. lmao. So Josue cussed her out and she started crying and then they took turns going into the office, and Nancy was all like, "I'm setting up B floor and leaving!" which of course she didn't, and she was still pretty nice to me. Anyway, Josue told me they're not firing him even though this is his second warning because it was more Nancy's fault.

By the way, I filed my two week's notice in time for tennis. I'll have Fridays and Saturday's partially back. People at work laughed at me when they found out, but I don't care. So this weekend is my last. I'm going to miss all those people. :( I learned so much about their slice of life. You don't gain that experience and knowledge anywhere else. I've learned a lot about people who work two jobs and who are so so so hard working. They make the work fun. Those are the people I admire. They might not like the place, but they keep coming because of their character.
So I'm not like them in a way because I quit, but I had a reason, and I'm only a teenager. When I grow up, I want to carry their lives with me and hopefully be as good as any of those people. I want to have their attitude.

politics

2008-03-05T02:39:44Z

huckabee is out of it. (i liked that man, he seemed nice)
i feel bad for hillary.
hillary or obama?
can't decide.