It has been so so so long. I thought I'd post. I don't really know what to say though.
I am going to college in the fall, so yay for that. I don't really have any goals beside that. That gets my parents pretty upset, but it's not my fault I don't know what I want to do with my life just yet. I'll go to college and I'll find out.
Prefrosh weekend was amazing though, so I expect to have loads of fun. =)

I am reading Michael Crichton's Travels, and it is rather good. I love learning about the different places he visits. He said he went to the psychic association of London, and the psychic were spot on!! He also climbed Mount Kilimanjaro. I feel like I know him. lol.

All right, this is getting really lame. Haha. I feel like I should have something interesting to say?

Oh, I've been searching for a job.
This is what I have so far:
-the people at Boston Market really like me/ said they'd call in a week
-I'll be working with Ms. Arnold at WHS on Mon and Tues stuffing report cards into envelopes
-I'm participating in a study for people who wear glasses at Wellesley College (I'm the guinea pig) and I get paid $20!
-I have preorientation dorm clean up where I will be paid a total of $400

My grandmother visited for three weeks! She's gone now, but that was rather exciting. We played checkers every day.

I went to kickboxing class today. I sweated through my sneakers -- that's got to mean something.

Summer is kind of lame. It has been raining two weeks straight. I can't even go swimming. Can't complain, though -- I got my luck back today!

This is a lame story, but I'll tell it anyway.
Yesterday I woke up and went to turn off my alarm and it hit me in the face. LOL. Then I got a call from Ms. Arnold but I couldn't anwer because I was in the bathroom. And later I messed up my expository writing placement exam. I thought my luck had ended...

BUT

My expository writing exam is fixed. And today I went to close the car door but I gave it a light push so I went to check if I had in fact closed it, and I had!! I know it sounds lame, but I guess I'm really superstitious? Anyway, I figure the luck is back..if only for a while.

Anyway, I don't have much to say anymore. Maybe when I have something insightful I will post. Or when I just want to say something. HA.

kk.

Maybe I'll try to learn some new juggling tricks?

I know I'm only seventeen but I feel like I've lived a thousand lives. I've been so lucky to experience so many things. I can still remember the first time I woke up in America and our apartment was so strange. It was all like an adventure. I hopped out of bed and went to the bathroom, only I really wanted to see what the button on the doorknob would do and I ended up locking the door from the outside. I started crying because I thought I broke it! I still feel that sense of adventure everytime I come back to Waltham at the end of the summer. Everything seems so foreign and I'm in awe at the huge supermarkets and all the people, people, people.
But I think it's so amazing that I've seen Disney World! It really is magical and it's beautiful! And I've been to Canada and Florida and Bermuda. And I love the weekends that I get to spend with my parents!
I can't help feeling happy at all these things that have happened in my life. At seventeen, I feel like I've lived out so many things already, that'd I'd be fine with leaving.
Of course, I'd be even more happier with experiencing even more! I want to get more acquainted with grief and I want to travel and I want to live life. I want to be fully human. I want to learn more.
I feel very lucky that I've made it this far, because some people don't even live past the age of 2. And I think it would be great if I could continue in this way. I just can't believe I'll see and learn and hear even more than I have already.

School is great!
Mrs. Roberts loves me (even though she is insane (she wanted to dress up as Britney for Halloween! stick to the angel, lady)),  I'm getting brilliant grades. She hates Josue though. That stinks because he really tries and he's trying to be active and get good grades this year even though it's kind of late. I can't wait until we get to donate that cow in Diversity Club.
We were reading The Hours. It's a great book! It's even better than Mrs. Dalloway, which wasn't great. But seriously, The Hours has everything in it. And it's beautifully written. Not like these Young Adult novels these days which are written for like elementary school students or something. Seriously, the writing sucks.
We got our alcohol surveys back from 9th grade today! That was interesting. Hahaha, for the question, "Why do you not drink?" I wrote, "I heard it kills brain cells and I don't want to go crazy." LOL. Yes, that's it.
I'm so close to finishing college stuff!
SATs Saturday for failures like me, hahahaha. But seriously, I actually studied for Bio this time, so I plan on getting a higher score.
We get to read Oedipus over the weekend and Wednesday I think we're starting Hamlet.
John Shen has been being really nice to me. This is surprising since I can never tell if he hates me or not. Haha. He dressed up as a pimp ata the NHS dance though! Hahaha. And Frankie got a ridiculous crazy haircut that makes him look French, but which I dislike. It looks too girlish.
We had a debate in school today. I felt bad for Shani because she didn't do so well as Obama, but it's really scary to be up there, so I don't blame her. Sam as McCain was amazing. Someone was like, "If only McCain was half as good..." Sam is now my hero. I heard Deland did better as Obama the second time around?
Math is amazingly fun. I don't get why I like it so much.
Ahhhh, Mrs. Cappucci is killing me. She has NO EMOTIONS whatsoever. Today we were taking an enzyme quiz and we could hear someone sobbing in the stairwell like, "I don't have any s***" and she just went over and closed the door and was like, "Meltdown. We all have those." HAHA. whhaattt? this lady is nuts.
I get my senior pictures taken today. Yayyy.
BY THE WAY, turn on WE-TV sometime. If the NHS party is on, you'll see me being nominated for best costume and generally making a fool of myself.
I can't really think of anything else.
Oh oh! MY dad called me yesterday from the Hoover Dam!! Ahhhhh.
But remember life is a ferris wheel, so if you're up at one point, you might be down tomorrow. I guess that's what the "Greek Chorus" said, according to Roberts.
Really, this entry made no sense at all.
Ahhh the election is rather close. Although Obama's infomerical was amazing. I'm just afraid that if he wins, he'll get assassinated or something. THAT WOULD BE TERRIBLE. Which reminds me: READ A PRAYER FOR OWEN MEANY. Best book ever. If anything happened to Obama I would be in mourning. And if he got elected I would be HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY.
I'm going to stop now because this is making noo sense whatsoever. Good-bye.

The sea, my tempestuous lover. It softly caresses my skin, enveloping my being, wholly taking my soul. But it is a passionate lover; it is not afraid to violently toss me away, crash onto me with strong, frothy waves that deafen -- yet, as if it has changed its mind for acting so maliciously, it lovingly carries me back and onward. I give myself to the sea, let it fold over my body, wash over my creases, let it regenerate my spirit. The sea is not always calm, but it is always ready to take me -- to take me away.

And the paths, the well trodden, common paths I take in this country run through my veins; just as the soft air, as soft as silk on tree leaves, with that distinct scent, hides deep inside my soul. This is the country of childhood and summers reading books, traveling, living with my grandmother, meeting new people. It is the country I revisit every summer and are never dulled for new experiences.

Boy, I'm really going to miss those seniors, Sam and Clair!

i know you all will be disappointed to hear that i did not win the car today. however, i did get into the fifty final keys! woop! so i got a t-shirt and a name tag. and clair, who was sitting right next to me, got into the final fifty too! 
it was not that exciting, but now it is.
so we walked to the pit/back of the school where the car was. claudiane was my personal cheerleader down the hallways. seriously, she kept yelling my name the WHOLE hallway. she also took some pictures [see facebook]. anywho, we got there and we got into two lines. i was number 19, conveniently in between johnshen and michaelrusso. mrs. lopes and the radio guy wanted everyone to cheer loud so we did. 
like 15 people tried keys i think? something like that. and then deland walked up to the plate. and guess what? he won. he won it! he got so excited he jumped out of the car, once it was revved up, and started prancing in circles in front of like four cameras. he did some jiggly motions, some michael jackson moves, and then he proceeded to climb on top of the car and pose. lmao. it was awesome. i'm proud of him. hahaha. all the photographers were having a really good day with all the good pictures they were taking of him. haha, he had the greatest reaction.
of course, i'm not upset that i didn't win because i already have a car and i got a t-shirt. but it'd be nice if i could have a key as a memory. haha. and those sneakers they had as condolence prizes? i'd like a pair instead of a car. mine have large holes in them. lol.

anyway, it was loads of fun. and i'm glad i was one of the fifty chosen.

Today our match was canceled because the other team's bus never showed up. But that's not the point of this entry.
I came home and my dad called and was like, "Where are you?" and I'm like, "Home." Turns out, he went to Brandeis to watch our match, but I never called to tell him it was canceled. I wasn't expecting him to come. I love him so much. I hope he comes again. That's the cutest thing ever. :]

I also realized how lucky I was to be born into this life. I grew up in a good family and I live here with all these opportunities that I can just go out and take. Never take these opportunities for granted. I was thinking about all the people in less civilized parts of the world, where they may not even have water for days. And here I am, drinking water 24/7.  I'm not in a war-struck part of the world. I'm not a child who grew up with abusive parents or parents who didn't try to make the most of their child's life. And it's not the childrens' faults. It's just the way things go. I feel so so so lucky to be living this life, and not in Myanmar, dead because of a cyclone, or in Indonesia, with a wrecked home because of a tsunami, or even here, with parents who didn't try hard to earn some money or raise their child in a healthy manner. I love my parents. They are the closest people to me because they understand me better than anyone.
I can't really put this feeling in words. I'm just glad I live here where I can compete to be what I want. Not everyone has that shot in life. I hope that the people with wrecked lives are reborn into luckier families. 
I bet this all sounds cliche or something, but it's true. Life is all about enjoying the opportunites life presents to you, because you might not be this lucky next time. Some people in this country and the media make it so easy to complain about things. I can't even describe it. I just learned to take what you have because some people don't even have that.

Anyway, AP exam tomorrow! Woop! I'm pumped and confident. Wish me luck!

Nate the Great - A favorite childhood novel.

Name - Whenever people call me Darja, with the hard j, it doesn't feel as if I'm answering with myself, but as another person. It's weird. Whenever I say that, it feels like I'm talking about someone else.

The N-Word - I'm not gonna say it. You think I'm gonna say it? Well, I'm not. It's just, that's the first thing I though of which made me think of black people. I like black people because they're very open and not afraid to tell it like it is.

Nineteen Sixty-Three - The year my mom was born and also the year Kennedy was shot.

Nineteen Eighty-Four - Great book. Chilling, but sends out a good warning to the future.

Narwhal!!! - OMG! I just found out about this animal over the weekend. It is the craziest thing ever! It's like a whale, but it has a huge horn thing like a unicorn! It's amazing. I can't believe no one ever told me about this animal before! You can't miss it!

Nazis - Generally bad people. As in: Nazi Party, Anna the Nazi, Spinning Nazi. Can also be beneficial as in: grammar Nazi.

Nolan - Mrs. Lopes's small son.

Naked - Reminds me of Daniel Radcliffe in that horse show. Also, strangely enough, of little kids.

Neighbors - Craazy people. Like our neighbors from the Middle East.

So yesterday I got home at 8:30. That sucked. 
And then I slept. 

Gotta go write my essay.

I wish I knew what to do in life. 
Right now I'm thinking about becoming an elementary school teacher.
But that'll change in approximately a week.
Other jobs I like(d):
marketing
journalism
environmentalist
alternative/renewable energy scientist
the people who work on NatGeo
the people who go into rainforest research
insect scientist
biologist
archaelogist
anthropologist
teacher
translator
circus clown
volleyball player
movie production
screenwriting
author
astronaut
pilot
detective

But most of all right now, I want to go to Latvia and see my grandmother.